I'm leaving to meet J. tomorrow morning in Seattle. He has been there this past week at a business conference. Wren & Zayne are spending Thursday night at Indianola with their OPEPO class. So, early morning I'm dropping Wren & Zayne off at school, then heading to Seattle in J.'s hotel room where I'm going to study study study for my LSAT. I'm taking it Saturday in Ellensburg, which is actually several hours from Seattle. I signed up late, so the tests in Seattle and Tacoma were full. So, I'll spend Thursday night in Seattle with J., then Friday night in Ellensburg before I take the test on Saturday.

If anyone knows me they know I've always and consistently said "I want to go to law school, I want to be a lawyer!" Well, here goes, it's my start! I have my LSAT for Dummies and it's going to take me all the way!

Hmmmm . . ..I can go to Denver University Law School in Colorado, Brooklyn Law? UW? We'll see! Wish me luck . . . . . .

On Saturday September 8th, Karle Coppenrath hosted a wonderful birthday get away at her family's Mats Mats cabin. She thought of the idea, planned, arranged, and hosted the whole shin-dig. If you don't know Karle, she is sweet, beautiful, thoughtful, poised, and gracious. I felt so lucky for her to offer to do this for me. Then I sat back as she invited everyone, gave them all the details and executed the best potluck, most wonderful girl-time, naked hot tubbing, roasting marshmallows, dancing, etc. etc.

It felt awesome to be surrounded by womb-town - accomplished, marvelous, fantastic women supporting each other and enjoying each other so much. The whole day and night radiated love and kindness and goodness and sharing and commiserating about this thing called our lives!

It was just a wonderful moment in time. A day and night to remember with my great girlfriends! I'm 34 years old . . . .what does the next year hold??

My Realtor came to the house today. Sort of weird because I have a buyer, but she has to wait for her house to sell first. If it could be a straight transaction - me to buyer, but alas it's hard to make choices and decisions when so much is contingent on other things! List of items I'm doing to move forward: LSAT on September 29th, getting an appraisal on the house, getting Joe to paint the house neutral colors. List the house after painting but mostly hope my buyer's house sells! Reading relationship book(s)!!

I am confused. I am sad. I am frustrated. I want to move to Colorado to be closer to my family. Easier said than done. The house that we live in is too big, too expensive. I don't feel safe here. I feel too vulnerable and exposed in this small town. I want newness, bigger, different. I want to live somewhere where there are more opportunities, more infrastructure for families, a closer college for educational pursuits. I want to live close to Jack, John, my mom and Jacque! I have great friends here, marvelous wonderful beautiful friends here. That's not it. It's just that I have the 7 year itch. We moved here August 2000. I arrived a girl with two young children. I'm a woman now, battle-tested and ready to spread my wings.